I’m not a success story. My body doesn’t follow a set of rules, or react as expected and this is just one example. My physical therapist finally said, you’re done here until you get a second opinion. She finally stopped ‘beating around the bush’ and said, you shouldn’t be here anymore because most people leave PT way before this. (She tried to say it as nicely as possible.) Would have been easier if she just said go away. The last three appointments before my last physical therapy appointment that I’ve had the therapist spent much of the time asking me how I felt, what I was doing, and how it felt after I did x or y exercise. Every time I thought I was walking out with a plan. Every time I was confused why we were going through these steps. Every time I noticed more and more faces, less and less feedback. (Each appointment was 4-5 weeks apart. She never clearly said if I was meant to be doing anything different in between appointments.) Every next visit something was different. Then, after what became my last appointment everything became clear. My theory, my assumption, was my physical therapist’s boss didn’t want her spending time on me anymore. I wasn’t making enough progress.
Probably partly because I have pain and problems with exercise that are super difficult to explain.
Probably partly because my physical therapist doesn’t truly understand the different effects multiple sclerosis symptoms can have on different people. There’s too much variety in the symptoms.
Probably partly because I’m not like the typical physical therapist patient who comes to get something fixed after surgery or an injury. I’m different.
Probably partly because I take more time than the average patient and I’ve had more intensive therapy than the average patient. Similar to how I see more doctors. And I ask questions about anatomy.
When I left the last appointment she was saying things like maybe I need to get a second opinion and, again, asking me what I wanted to accomplish in PT. – My previous plans weren’t good enough after someone else had reviewed my records/her reports. She suggested I email her my schedule so she could give me pointers on how to increase my activity. We did that another time in the past, she didn’t follow through. I said sure, knowing nothing would come out of it. Then, out of the blue she followed up a week or so after my last appointment via phone. Why would she call when she stopped replying to the majority of my (occasional) emails with progress reports. I don’t even remember the content of the call because I said what she wanted to hear. She wanted me to go away, so I finally have and that last phone call was for her to get her due diligence completed.
Chronic diseases make you a patient some doctors don’t want to deal with. MCAS makes you a bad patient and it made me a bad patient for physical therapy because I continued to have something happen that slowed down my progress – most of 2017. Like a migraine for a week more than once, or 3 weeks of antifungal treatment via PICC line. Or an allergic reaction that left me sick for a week. Or I tried increasing how often I did my physical therapy at home, and it was too much, and my symptoms flared. Nothing is easy. Just once I’d like to be able to do what is supposed to make me better AND have it make me better. All year my physical therapy was one step forward, two steps back, or two steps forward and one large step back. Sometimes one step forward, nothing backwards. As compared to where I was a in January of 2017 I’m better, definitely, but I have plenty of problems and as of yet, no medical professional who wants to take the extra time to understand.