Why I want to write a book

I have more than a few hurdles that make writing daily difficult. These include my health – physical and mental, as well as my regular doctor appointments.

Beyond that, I’ve realized in the past 6 months or so that the biggest things that stop me from making progress and building momentum in my writing are staying organized and continuing to track my progress – or not knowing how to track my progress. They make it difficult for me to remember why I want to write a book (or two, or three, or more).

  • I enjoy the writing process. I hate the beginning, when you’re starting, like everyone else who’s human, but I love the actual process; regardless of whether it’s a blog post, a thesis paper, a short story, or something else.
  • I want to write the kind of story that I wish was available when I was growing up. This falls under the write the kind of book you want to read.
  • I want to write a story that’s focuses on women and girls doing important things and the boys and men aren’t as important to the story. I’ve reached a point in my life where I prefer protagonists that I have something in common with.
  • I’ve recently realized I appreciate books, tv shows, and movies with themes of survival – especially individual survivors. For example, I watch Law and Order: SVU because of the characters on the show who keep going despite all the terribleness in the world. In the past few months I’ve learned also that I identity with the word “survivor” so I’d like to incorporate some of this into a story too.
  • Another that I sometimes forget, is that I want to write a story where the protagonist has a mental illness that makes getting through daily life more difficult – but not impossible. Basically, present mental illness in a way to show that it’s simply part of life.
  • Finally, writing is also learning and I love to learn.

And now I think it’s important to list out why I hate writing –

  • It’s hard.
  • It’s overwhelming.
  • It takes regular work and some days it feels like there’s no reward.
  • It’s difficult for me to stay organized.
  • Sometimes it’s difficult to remember what I was doing or where I was going with the story.
  • Making decisions is hard.
  • I can’t seem to remember the most productive ways to brainstorm.