Observations on my eating and diet

All related to health and stuff.

Noticed recently that I eat more when I’m in enough pain that I need to take additional pain meds. (Wouldn’t it be nice to see the numbers on calories burned for people who aren’t always in pain? Seems like being in pain must burn more calories!) On top of that, I realized just this morning, that if I don’t feel well at all – no mental focus, all the fatigue, enough pain that standing more than a few minutes might be an issue – I could add more – then I don’t want to actually make myself meals. In fact, I don’t even want to use the brain power to even think about what kind of meal to prepare. Perhaps I’ve forgotten that your diet is part of your self care? If I don’t assemble a meal then I snack. I’ll snack all afternoon instead. When I do that it’s difficult to keep track of what I’ve eaten. Anything that resembles a meal is way easier to keep track of – even just mentally through the day. This seems like the better option compared to just grabbing a snack instead.

My diet is already difficult because I have to balance limitations placed on me because of food allergies, food intolerances/sensitivities that can be damn near deadly, gastroparesis, migraine triggers, trying to lose or at least maintain my weight, and now PCOS. MS has its own set of dietary recommendations and only some of those are similar to the recommendations for fibromyalgia. Avoid these foods, eat some of those foods, etc. etc. One health problem says eat low fiber, another health problem says eat high fiber. Low fiber wins. For example, I can’t not eat rice or potatoes. It’s just not happening. If I followed all of these diets I’d eat nothing but baked chicken and uh? Well I don’t even know. I’d hate my life. Anyways.

I will be making myself consider whether I want to develop a list of meals – right down to how many chicken nuggets I would need – for when I don’t feel well and can’t summon the mental focus to figure out what to eat. Do I want to spend the time and energy on this or do I just want to try a little harder when I’m making food for myself? I also need to think out and actually make decisions more often. That makes no sense but here’s what I mean. I cannot eat dinner (The dinner that my awesome husband makes that will be way more tasty than chicken nuggets or fish and chips from the freezer that might be an easy alternative.) late if the dinner is higher in fat because then my stomach spends most of the night digesting it. This is especially important if any of my health problems are (currently) aggravated or flaring. Maybe, when I can stop and make these choices the flares of pain/fatigue/bloating/nausea or any of the other things that might happen to make me feel crappier than usual, won’t last as long? Not sure if I want to actually hope this to be true. I imagine it’ll help only some of the time.

Also, I had an epiphany related to my muscular problems and my stomach. Had this epiphany at 4 am after I woke up from coughing and started refluxing food so I crawled out of bed for a bit. All of your muscles are part of you, and everything really is connected. I have a great deal of trouble with my muscles not wanting to work at their full range of motion. My eyes won’t focus out after I’ve spent a few hours knitting. Muscles that aren’t regularly stretched do actually seem to get shorter (and tighter). I wouldn’t be surprised if my muscle problems are what’s causing the gastroparesis to flare up.

tl;dr: I bet stretching helps my digestion more than I can even imagine. I will try harder when planning food choices when I’m alone and eating for one because maintaining your own personal diet – with variety – is also part of good self care. And I’m not going to stop eating ice cream or chocolate, but I do want to try drinking more low fat goat milk.

Have I really been sick for a month and a half?

Or, I hope I don’t need a third course of antibiotics. Caught a cold after attending an outside beer and music festival. Spent too much time among the unwashed masses. (And had to use porta-potties.) Cold turned into a sinus infection. Then either the sinus infection wasn’t kicked with the first round of antibiotics or a developed another sinus infection. That’s just since November 1st!

Basically, now that I’m free of infection but still coughing and blowing my nose, it’s like my immune system has been fighting the cold ever since I caught it – and got over it. Technically, I did get over it. But my immune system didn’t ever bother to stand down.

I think this further enforces my whole idea that my immune system is staffed – or run – by conspiracy theorists.

Still might have another doctor appointment tomorrow. Tempted to cancel it so I don’t have to get out of bed. Looking at a run of prednisone now. Hopefully my body will calm its shit.

I mean, c’mon! A COLD. I’m so damned tired. Only good side of this? I’ve been in virtually no pain through all of this because my body is doing other shit. I’m not going to worry about this causing an MS relapse that’ll require more and extremely more powerful, steroids. I will not.

Now, my most serious decision for the rest of the day will be when to take the NyQuil.